Still The Addict

Still the Addict

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Reblog - 1 year ago with 1,481 notes

#okay so many feelings about this #i don't think dean realizes just how much cas put on the line to save his ass #he rebelled against HEAVEN #against everything he ever believed in to help dean #he died #he killed angels #he risked it all and followed dean into a world where he could actually make his own decisions #he always comes when dean needs his help but i cant remember dean actually thanking him #then cas needs dean's help but never asks for it because he doesn't want to burden him #he doesn't want to ask him for anything after everything that dean gave up to save the world #he ends up alone and desperate for a way to beat rafael #and then crowley comes along with what seems to be his only solution #i think dean really appreciated cas but never took the time to show it #and that is why dean refuses to believe cas would betray them and yet why cas chooses to fight this war on his own #dean tells him they're family but it's too late and when cas realizes that it breaks my heart #because i think he knows that he made a mistake but can't fix it #and he knows that he's let his only friends down #yet he sacrifices himself #yet again #to protect them #when dean told Death to kill Cas I think a little part of me died #because you can still see that cas is in there somewhere #and i think even he cant believe what dean just said #for someone who thought of cas as 'family' three episodes before #dean is pretty quick to sentence him to death #and that is what broke me